Moving on..

One thing life has taught me to do... To move on. Life has been one up and down roller coaster. One thing I did go through that hurts the most is being heartbroken. That’s something everyone goes though and fears the most. I never thought that life would take such a turn with that. I was shocked when it happened. Unprepared I was thrown in the trash as if I was a piece of useless paper. Guys are all the same. They make you fall in love with them, make you blinded by every move, and they tell the next girl the same thing they told you. Of course since you’re blinded by love, you believe every word. Now that it’s all gone, you look back at the memories. Those are the worst ones. You can’t go anywhere without everything reminding you of them. Every memory you guys had is just a memory now. It can’t be erased. All gone and leaving you with emptiness and a pain in your heart. You somehow start doubting yourself and blaming yourself for everything that went wrong. Maybe you had something to do with it, but one thing you shouldn’t do is bring yourself down. My love for him was unconditional. It was endless. His for me on the other hand, was conditional and ended without too much thought and him wanting a new fish in the sea. Without too much effort, he found someone else to replace me. But I guess that’s life. There’s always one person more dominant in the relationship. One that loves more than the other. There’s never a balance between both. One thing I learned is to not give myself to anyone. To keep myself to myself. Never go 100%. Let that other person meet you halfway. You are stronger than you think. It’s going to hurt and it’s not going to be an easy journey, but one day you will seal that wound. Maybe not heal completely because first loves are always in your heart, but you will move on. You will learn to stand up and live your life again. You will eventually learn to love again. Just remember to not put in your whole self. Let the other person do part of the work. Love hurts, love is blind, but love is beautiful and its worth fighting for and going through it, but learn to love yourself first because that’s the only one that matters.