Guess it all meant nothing to you..

The first day I met you I will always remember. You made me fall in
love at first sight. You were that one person I knew I was gonna spend
my whole life with. You gave me happiness and joy and made me feel as
if I was the most special person in this world. For 7 months I was the
luckiest and most happiest girl in the world. The first 3 months were
pure happiness. When I left to brazil, I left you and I knew how hard
that was for both of us. You wrote to me and said you missed my warm
hugs I always give you and those soft besitos. You also said when you
looked up into the blue sky you felt like if you were dazing at my
beautiful blue eyes, but then the thought of me being so far from you
had made you eyes water again and that writing to me helped you ease
the pain of me not being with you. When I came back I was in shock
when I saw you standing there with flowers to greet me. I was so happy
to see your beautiful face and hug you and kiss you once again. From
that day on I never wanted to leave your side. Months passed and
Valentine’s Day came about. That was my first one and I got to spend
it with the love of my life. You made that day so special to me and I
will never forget that. Everyday spent with you felt that way. I felt
butterflies every time I saw you. I kept thinking of how lucky I was
to be your girlfriend. To be the love of your life. To be your
gordise. To have that warm touch and feel your love every day. I was
so happy because we would always talk about our future and how you
would come home to me every night and we would cuddle and sleep
together. How we would get married and have 4 kids even though I
wanted 2. You calling me the love of your life and saying you will
never find anyone like me and never wanted to. All those school breaks
that we would take, and those weekends made me feel as if the world
didn’t matter. As if being with you, the world took a pause. All the
calls and webcam nights. I would look at you and pretend i was next to
you. Look at you sleep like a little baby. I miss that. All those
movie nights and late nights were amazing. It felt like the first time
all the time. Your touch, your kiss, your passion, your love. It all
matters. I miss that so much. It all made me feel so loved. The jokes
we would make. The laughter that aroused it. The silliness. The
sadness. The happieness. All those happened. All those wonderful
memories all just memories that keep me crying day in and day out. I
can't believe it's all over. I can't belive you ended something so
special. So great, so beautiful. Something that could have lasted
forever. Everyone would say how perfect we were for each other and how
much they wanted us to be together. And I do too. Things in life
happen but how feelings can get lost in all those wonderful memories I
don't know how. I realize my mistakes and wish I can take it all back
but I can't. But please give yourself time to think about all that and
think about how much more we can make happen. I love you and always
will.