Breaking Free

I believe in love, I really do. I also believe that people change. People make mistakes and life happens accordingly. But wow, I can’t believe someone can overly hurt another. It’s like a never ending roller coaster. You think it’s over but there’s always that next loop. I have been one to believe that everything happens for a reason but I just can’t seem to understand it. I say one thing and do the other. I guess I have to start doing something I have been telling myself not to do. Maybe I should finally let that book close. Its pointless to be stuck on that last page. If it doesn’t want to flip on its own, I have to do it. It’s a change I took and now its time for that hope to vanish. No one can change who you are, that’s a fact. But someone can definitely change how you feel. I am an emotional person and take situations to the extreme. But that’s just the way I am. I can’t change that. I can’t change the fact that I love someone that doesn’t love me back. I can’t change the fact that life isn’t going how I planned. I can’t change myself, but I can change the attitude I have towards things. I can build up trust and not put up walls. I can be an optimist and look at that light at the end of the tunnel. I can change my attitudes but not my emotions. I want to take care of myself and focus on my future before I can jump into anything else. I feel like I lost myself and need to be reassured that I can find myself again. Life is one big box of chocolates. You really never know what you will get. Maybe I just want life to take a different course, but as I see it now, it’s how it’s supposed to be even though I don’t want to believe it. I am hoping this next year brings me more happiness and less surprises. I’m hoping for that change. Change your attitudes but never change who you are. You are you and no one can change that.