Moving on..

One thing life has taught me to do... To move on. Life has been one up and down roller coaster. One thing I did go through that hurts the most is being heartbroken. That’s something everyone goes though and fears the most. I never thought that life would take such a turn with that. I was shocked when it happened. Unprepared I was thrown in the trash as if I was a piece of useless paper. Guys are all the same. They make you fall in love with them, make you blinded by every move, and they tell the next girl the same thing they told you. Of course since you’re blinded by love, you believe every word. Now that it’s all gone, you look back at the memories. Those are the worst ones. You can’t go anywhere without everything reminding you of them. Every memory you guys had is just a memory now. It can’t be erased. All gone and leaving you with emptiness and a pain in your heart. You somehow start doubting yourself and blaming yourself for everything that went wrong. Maybe you had something to do with it, but one thing you shouldn’t do is bring yourself down. My love for him was unconditional. It was endless. His for me on the other hand, was conditional and ended without too much thought and him wanting a new fish in the sea. Without too much effort, he found someone else to replace me. But I guess that’s life. There’s always one person more dominant in the relationship. One that loves more than the other. There’s never a balance between both. One thing I learned is to not give myself to anyone. To keep myself to myself. Never go 100%. Let that other person meet you halfway. You are stronger than you think. It’s going to hurt and it’s not going to be an easy journey, but one day you will seal that wound. Maybe not heal completely because first loves are always in your heart, but you will move on. You will learn to stand up and live your life again. You will eventually learn to love again. Just remember to not put in your whole self. Let the other person do part of the work. Love hurts, love is blind, but love is beautiful and its worth fighting for and going through it, but learn to love yourself first because that’s the only one that matters.

Guess it all meant nothing to you..

The first day I met you I will always remember. You made me fall in
love at first sight. You were that one person I knew I was gonna spend
my whole life with. You gave me happiness and joy and made me feel as
if I was the most special person in this world. For 7 months I was the
luckiest and most happiest girl in the world. The first 3 months were
pure happiness. When I left to brazil, I left you and I knew how hard
that was for both of us. You wrote to me and said you missed my warm
hugs I always give you and those soft besitos. You also said when you
looked up into the blue sky you felt like if you were dazing at my
beautiful blue eyes, but then the thought of me being so far from you
had made you eyes water again and that writing to me helped you ease
the pain of me not being with you. When I came back I was in shock
when I saw you standing there with flowers to greet me. I was so happy
to see your beautiful face and hug you and kiss you once again. From
that day on I never wanted to leave your side. Months passed and
Valentine’s Day came about. That was my first one and I got to spend
it with the love of my life. You made that day so special to me and I
will never forget that. Everyday spent with you felt that way. I felt
butterflies every time I saw you. I kept thinking of how lucky I was
to be your girlfriend. To be the love of your life. To be your
gordise. To have that warm touch and feel your love every day. I was
so happy because we would always talk about our future and how you
would come home to me every night and we would cuddle and sleep
together. How we would get married and have 4 kids even though I
wanted 2. You calling me the love of your life and saying you will
never find anyone like me and never wanted to. All those school breaks
that we would take, and those weekends made me feel as if the world
didn’t matter. As if being with you, the world took a pause. All the
calls and webcam nights. I would look at you and pretend i was next to
you. Look at you sleep like a little baby. I miss that. All those
movie nights and late nights were amazing. It felt like the first time
all the time. Your touch, your kiss, your passion, your love. It all
matters. I miss that so much. It all made me feel so loved. The jokes
we would make. The laughter that aroused it. The silliness. The
sadness. The happieness. All those happened. All those wonderful
memories all just memories that keep me crying day in and day out. I
can't believe it's all over. I can't belive you ended something so
special. So great, so beautiful. Something that could have lasted
forever. Everyone would say how perfect we were for each other and how
much they wanted us to be together. And I do too. Things in life
happen but how feelings can get lost in all those wonderful memories I
don't know how. I realize my mistakes and wish I can take it all back
but I can't. But please give yourself time to think about all that and
think about how much more we can make happen. I love you and always
will.

Pursuit of happiness

Sometimes people come into your life & you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or help you figure out who you are & or who you want to become You never know who these people may be (possibly your roommate, neighbor, professor, long lost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger), but when you lock eyes with them, you know at the very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.
and sometime things will happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, & unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming these obstacles that you would have never realized your true potential, strength, will power, or heart
Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by mean of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness & sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without this small test, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe & comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.
The people that you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you will become Even the bad experiences are learned from. In fact, they are the most poignant ones.
If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love & how to open your heart & eyes to things.
Make everyday count. Appreciate every moment & take from those moments everything you could possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before & actually listen... Let yourself fall in love again, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right too.
Tell yourself that you are a great individual & believe in yourself. For if you don't believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you. You can make your life anything you wish.....Create your own life & then go out & live it with absolutely NO REGRETS. Most importantly, if you love someone tell him or her, for you NEVER know what tomorrow may have in store. And learn a lesson in life each day you live.
Today is the tomorrow you were worried about yesterday.... Was it worth it?

Life goes on..

So as the years,months,weeks,days,ho

urs, and minutes pass my life, I can honestly say I've lived a great one.I'm one to complain about everything wrong that happens, but i have no reason to. These past couple of months have had a toll on me that I couldn't even put in words. Dissapointments from every angle including a breakup. Who would have thought that in the blink of an eye it was all over. I've done my share of mistakes and I wish I could take them back but I can't. Things happen in life so you can learn from it and become a stronger person. It's hard at first and it might take some time to adjust and to manage, but that's why it's called life. It's ever changing and we have no control of it. I am waking up every morning and smiling because life goes on. It's a never ending journey. Live life to the fullest and enjoy every minute of it. And always know that everything in life happens for a reason.

Love at first sight

“Love at first sight”. Not too many believe in it. It’s never been something that I did either. I was one to believe that when we meet someone we gradually fall for them. It’s depicted in movies and we tend to always put it aside and only imagine it that way. Nowhere near the actual reality. I am certain of that. Always having the worst luck in love, I took every new opportunity as a great one. None worked out and I realized that guys have always and will forever be the same. I’ve been the type of girl which had respect for guys despite none having any for me. You will find a rare amount which will treat a woman like she’s meant to be treated. As for love, women seek the best. We don’t want a boy, we want a man. Never did I think I was going to find love at first sight. Having every relationship fail, I quickly turned my smile upside down and let things happen on their own. I wasn’t going to be the one to look for the impossible. Little did I know that those who wait get the unimaginable. I met my soul mate unexpectedly. It was love at first sight, yet I didn’t know it at the time. I never took the time to realize that something outstanding was actually about to happen in my life. When it did, I was astounded by how my luck turned around. It was unforeseen, yet the greatest thing to happen to me in a long time. I met the most unbelievable person. He’s everything you can only dream of. Being with him is like being in heaven. He always seems to blow my mind away. I fell head over heels for him and I have absolutely no doubt as to why. He makes me smile even when I’m having a difficult day. He’s the sweetest, most affectionate, captivating, remarkable, smart, funny, considerate guy I have ever met in my entire life. I have fallen for Prince charming which will never be replaced. It amazes me how lucky I got to have met someone so special and exceptional. It goes to show that there is such thing as love at first sight. Everyone is meant to be with somebody. It just takes time to find that extraordinary someone to love and appreciate.

Living life to the fullest

Have you ever stopped to wonder how this life we live isn’t infinite? It’s a life we strive to succeed in and make the best out of without being negative. Having a positive attitude towards life is something I’ve always had trouble with. I guess since I was younger, nothing spectacular ever happened in my life, in order for me to look at it with 20/20 vision. I was never put down by my parents or by friends, yet I still didn’t understand how to be affirmative. As you grow older you realize that nothing gets easier. Everything in life happens in sequence. It’s like a puzzle. Nothing in life is done without something else being completed first. It’s challenging yet worth it. I have never been one to complain about life until recent years. Life has been an arduous journey. It’s had its ups and downs. Yet we must always rise every time we fall. It’s something we all learn from. We all learn from our mistakes and we learn to live life as it is planned for us. Everyone has a purpose in life. Everything happens for a reason. Things always happen to teach us the meaning of life. The importance that life has. It’s crucial to have people around you to guide you and help you become a better person. I’ve had wonderful parents; nevertheless I’ve had to deal with opposing factors from my dad. He’s never been on my side. Or at least that’s my mentality. And yet I’m still standing and rising to the best of my abilities. I will not let anyone bring me down. No one has to live regretting life. Sure we’ve made mistakes. I know I have. But I have learned to let it go. I’m much stronger because of it. I’ve had amazing things happen to me in the past couple of months and I’m overly grateful for it. I’ve had people walk in and out of my life, with no explanations and giving me the afflictive pieces to pick up. My love life has been one that never put me at ease.Ive always had terrible luck with that area. My negativity told me to just give up and so I did. I told myself that if it’s meant to happen, it will at its own time. And so it did. I met the most fascinating guy unexpectedly and fell in love for the first time. When you’re young, you think you know what love is, until you actually find out what love is all about. Meeting that special person is a strenuous journey but when you do find your way, it’s the most beautiful thing you can endure. Having butterflies in your stomach every time his name is mentioned. Or every time you hear his voice. Or even having the slightest words spoken to you can make your day exceptional. The love of my life was the most difficult thing to find, yet the most rewarding. I wouldn’t ask for anyone else. I found prince charming by accident and fell truly in love. No one knows the feeling unless you’re in that position. And so I can say I have lived through so much in the past 20 years, endured pain, and happiness, and fallen in love.

LIFE: Just one simple word..

Life…it's a simple four letter word that means much more than you can conceive. It's a journey, something that alters without your consent. It consists of happiness, sorrow, anguish, joy, pursuit, and love. It's anything you do. It's something unforeseen. It occurs in ways that we can't administer. Have you ever wondered why you're in this world? Why things turn out the way they do? Well hate to break it to you...But that's LIFE...And your part of it. The protagonist. When in moments of despair, of pain, you must choose your direction. You must choose which way to go. Are you substantial enough? Do you have the courage to go on? That's the most challenging question you must ask yourself everyday. Everyone makes mistakes. They sometimes have to live with it for the rest of their lives regretting every minute of it, but somehow someway you'll get through it. It's going to hurt like hell, and you're going to want to try and do everything possible to undo the mess, but in the end you'll figure out that its life. Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets.Unfortunately we can't change it but we can make it better. The biggest factor is strength. That's what gets you through the day. Life has its own destiny and sometimes you might not acknowledge it. We never do. But you have to look at the bright side, life is always changing. Sometimes for the best and other times for the worst. Your life depends on the actions you take and the decisions you make. At times it might not be what you bargained for, but in the end it always finds its way. I believe everything happens for a reason. We might not understand it. People change. Situations occur out of our reach. We learn to live with it as best as we can. We appreciate everything we have because in the end you learn that it was just another chapter in your life. We open up our eyes to new horizons. A new beginning. You learn to trust no one but yourself. Fight for it no matter how hopeless it may seem. Sometimes it may seem impossible, but guess what...Everything is possible. Love the people that will treat you right and forget the ones that don't. Love with all your heart. Live like you mean it. And enjoy the life God gave you. No one said life would be easy. They just promised it would be worth it. "Every story has an end, but in life every end is just a new beginning"...