Addiction

Sometimes the normal habitual act becomes second nature and becomes an addiction you can’t break. When nothing goes the way you plan, you figure out a way to fix it by changing the normal way you usually do things. You look for answers in places you normally wouldn’t and you realize sometimes that you’re fooling yourself by doing so. You force yourself in believing that it’s the right thing to do but in reality it isn’t. It’s definitely become an addiction at this point and to break it seems like an arduous task. One that takes more than one can understand. One can’t walk away easily and pretend it’s the easiest thing in the world. Fooling yourself is harder to deal with than trying to face the problem directly. Everything has its time and place and if you try and change that when the time isn’t right, you get tangled in a war between your mind and your heart. Your head is telling you one thing while your heart is telling you another and your heart is something you can’t change even if you try.